lightcheonsa:

i dont even find joy in food anymore. the reason i binge is to make myself feel full for once. nothing makes me feel full anymore; emotionally i need something that fulfills me because nothing is working. t just feels like im waking up just to wait until the day ends again. my day consists of me waking up, thinking about calories calories calories you could be skinny now if you didnt eat this a week ago imagine if you looked like her calories calories calories, going home from school and just waiting for the day to be over. im so bored…so fucking bored and exhausted from doing nothing.