It’s just literally fucking exhausting to be doing everything right and working towards improvement more quickly than you or most people imagined possible and think that everything is good in the world, that everything is finally right –

Only to then find out that you’re still just… Not good enough. That even at the best you never thought you could be that you still don’t hit the mark. And to realize, for what you hope to God is the last time, that no matter what you do it will never be enough.