I just realized I’m still the kind of person people are ashamed to be seen with and it really sucks. Like a few people are down to hit me up for drama or gossip or to unload on, a couple of those people are even willing to hang out when I make it convenient. But even though they regularly talk and post about their other friends by name, even if they bother mentioning whatever we did my name is conveniently left out for no reason. And a million other little things.

Like I actually thought I’d grown enough that at least a couple of people would be willing to stand by me. Realizing that I’m still someone that literally everyone is ashamed to be associated with fucking burns.