Tag Archives: personal

October 19, 2018Uncategorizedme, personal, teatothebonesmylove

I was cleaning and reorganizing and this is the first time I’ve had all my tea in front of me! I’m honestly so proud of our tea collection and thought this was the perfect place to share. 💜

October 16, 2018Uncategorizedme, personaltothebonesmylove

I didn’t realize the guy who raped me a couple of months ago recorded part of it on my phone and I came across it randomly today and I feel so sick now. I can’t stop crying and shaking and I just want to crawl out of my skin.

October 15, 2018Uncategorizedme, personaltothebonesmylove

Self medicating again.

So due to the four (yes… /four/) concussions I’ve given myself in the last week I’ve realized drinking anytime soon is a horrible idea.

So I kinda replaced that with otc valium? Well, it’s valerian root, which has similar psychoactive effects as valium. A regular dose just relaxes you, but three or four times that feels really really nice.

Mix that with a nice big bowl and you get a long day of dazed dissociation.

October 13, 2018Uncategorized🐼 tracker 🐼, me, personaltothebonesmylove

Today is feeling brighter?

I don’t know. This is probably just another mood swing and in twelve hours I’ll be verging a psychotic break again. But for the moment I feel hopeful and energetic.

I do feel disgustingly full though. Due to all the head stuff I ended up eating a substantial amount yesterday (1000). My tummy still feels full and I’m incredibly tempted to use laxatives because they always make me feel better even if they don’t actually do anything. I still maintained though, at least, and I’m going back to normal today.